today was one of those days...busy but yet, lazy. Does that even make any sense? I had stuff to do...got it done. Sat around work and chatted and laughed and had a pretty good time. Came home. Did more stuff (all school stuff...) dropped off my film...and now, here I sit, feeling like I spent the day relaxing and yet, still tired. I am not making sense, am I?
I think the trick was that nice hot shower I took last night before going to bed. God! That was wonderful. I felt human again after that. The past few days I've been trying to get things done and feeling rushed...as if I don't have enough time. And today...the load has lightened. I have time. I feel like I should write about something more in-depth, but you know what? I really don't feel like it. I've been busting my ass and apparently, my brain is going on strike as well. I had a teacher way back when that said our bodies are lazy and will do the minimum required. I think my brain is in that mode now. The whole monkey mind thing. Stupid cheeky monkeys. I almost feel as if I am drunk...but I'm not. Sheeeeet!!
After I dropped my film off, I headed off to Trader Joe's for eggs and a quart of milk (how quaint of me!) This groovy vibe continued as they were playing some 80's music. I can't even remember the songs right now, but they were good. Have you ever found yourself singing along to the music at the grocery store? It was great. I was having a good time, and people were nice to me because of it (ok, so they were probably laughing at me behind my back. Like I care. I was having fun!!) I love being able to relax and chill and just have a good time. You know, sometimes I think I worry too much. And I stress too much. It's not much fun. But tonight? It was good. All good. I haven't felt like this (like my old self) in a while. That feeling that everything is good, things are working out as they need to be and I don't need to be worried. It's a good feeling. I wish it would last.